Endraxz

love brings change turned away or pushed aside the skewed point of view alone in the dark everyone has their own story fear of waiting joy in your eyes the blues the blushed and flushed red tears of rain a caged heart sings there when it is needed your will of fire closest friend notice me tension between us time goes by relaxed embrace talk hard memories made anew change brings love

Its balled up within my chest you crush my soul like all the rest I am consumed with emotion against a fallen angel My thoughts have been mangled Ive been blinded by the darkness This is how I feel when you keep running away from me This is how I look at my bottomless perdition It convulses when my soul yearns to get to know such ecstasy I grind my teeth with such distress Dead This is all i am Never had a life with many friends No one to be there for me

Journeying onwards Into plains of existence On the beaten path Confirm existence Self love only goes so far Futile emotions No part of the world Jehovah's Witness -- am I Yet I want to be Smooth shell of amber Her soft voice tickles my ears With heart stopping eyes Laughing at the pain A Clown's work -- instant pleasure ....(unfinished)

The few that have caught my attention The few women in my life that I mentioned The few whom I have felt intrigued The few in which are in my league The few... how many of them are you? The few of whom have shown interest The few that have become a pest The few that have shown genuine concern The few that offer me something to learn The few... which to choose? The few that held my infatuation The few that put me through a transformation The few made life better The few that made this face redder The few... which will I settle?

Awakening my dreams of pain searching while trying to understand why all these dreams are nearly the same these sensual pleasures of the mind my fleshly body that withers in time where virtual reality and reality interwine my glimpse into what the future may bring reminiscing of what my past did sing my future seeming to be fated where my underlying hopes are stated whether it be morn or nite a figment of hope becomes bright in a moment that might keep me sane.

The rotten dead rise forth With the flesh falling off there corpse Moaning and groaning, walking together Deaf, Dumb and Blind like Helen Keller Crows flying through the moonlit sky Mutilated animals strolling on by I sit here with my only eye Going into town looking for my beloved mate I must hurry up, for the time is as of late Walking through the forest of Duskwood

Everything is falling away from me Between sections of what I ought to be Hoping for a better tomorrow Fighting all this sorrow My world is turning upside-down In all retrospect Right here, right now My heart has become disavowed Dreadful and cold This is what my heart been mold This is why I am all alone

The shiny gloss of your hair just makes me want to stare With such pouting lips I can just imagine you say "pfft" The essence of your cheeks Brings your beauty to its peak As I see the sadness in your eyes as though a lonely star in the sky Your beauty makes them shine so bright I am drawn to you as though a moth to the light Ode to Kelly Thinking about you brings butterflies to my belly I stick out with this sickening pain Just to look at you again all the same Vividly stareing at this little miss Seeing that her lips are longing for that one special kiss

Wallowing in the thoughts of my mind Thoughts of you, you shall find Thinking of what to say or not The feelings that I hide inside Wondering if they are yours or mine Sympathy I do not deserve In the bowels of my soul I reside Looking towards you to help me climb But there is something that I can still not find